And what about how often you see him? Your friends think your going to get hurt, and look at you, if you have to think this much, then your already hurting about it.
But.... Every time I think they may be right, and I try to back out of it before I can get hurt ore than I have too.... He always seems to know what to say.... And I am happy when I am around him....
And then you go home and wonder what he's up to, think the worst, miss him, or just get outright depressed... Like earlier, you were growing numb out in the cold and remembered that he was far away because winter is snuggling season... You can't snuggle with a person who is not there.
But I can't blame him for that... It's not his fault he lives far away.... He is going to college close by, so maybe. . .
And what if he finds someone better then? You know you can't possibly let yourself believe your right for him. What if he finds the person who is while he's away and your finishing your starting your senior year?
SHUT UP! . . . . He said that there is no one better. . . And. . . . I just have to trust him. . . .
Then why don't you trust him? Why do you still worry?
I've been hurt before.....
You're starting to sound like me..... But... Who hasn't been hurt before? You will always get hurt.... Everyone gets hurt... We live, therefore we suffer...
YOUR NOT HELPING!!!
Like you are? You're causing even more problems for yourself dear. Don't you realize yet... It's not my fault.... It's yours.... You are the reason you can never be happy.... You don't let yourself....
I Have Issues
I'm freaking talking to myself
Do you think I'm crazy?
Of course you do....
I hope you don't
I'm freaking talking to myself
Do you think I'm crazy?
Of course you do....
I hope you don't
5 comments:
Haha, no, I don't think your crazy...
a little weird that you posted it, but I do it all the time...even though I'm some kind of hybrid now. The reasoning comes automatically
I dont think ur crazy either, it takes a lot for me to think A person is really crazy. I once knew a person who thought the world was ending because aliens were going to take over the world and they had installed chips in all our phones to blow up and she was a super hero. She was not crazy, just a bit weird. Its not that bad, it sounds like you have a conflict within yourself and the best thing you can do is to help resolve that conflict within yourself.
I have a question, when you said SHUT UP(as well as the short three paragraphs after that), were you talking to yourself, or did your bf say that?
I don't think you're crazy, crazy people usually don't ask if they're crazy, I think, or. at least, you just think a lot more about than most people would, and compared to some of the people I know, you don't sound completely insane. Plus, I ask the same questions often, so yea :)
btw, ty 4 the post about Wings and my comments
You are definetly not crazy.
I understand your pain a little bit.
And no I don't think your crazy! Haha! At least not as crazy as I am ^_^
The demon inside you,it's a very common happening. I too have constant demons like that. They like to crawl their way into my brain,when it's most hurt and vurnerable.
I found out that if you do one of those 'talks',like you posted here,it sometimes gets better. It's also nice to have a friend there to support you,I hope you have one. :3 Otherwise,even though we don't know each other at all, my should is dry and free XD
Hope everything works out for you,take care
YukiHyo
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