As usual I could be doing a lot better right now. I almost forgot what the "good" part of my title is, it is that bad. The good, I think, was that I've been helping my friend out with her graduation project. Too bad I am a horrible actress, but that is the least of my problems. I can deal with that... (Her project involves her filming part of a story she is writing. She can't be the main character because she has to direct it, therefore I have become the main character)
The bad and the worst... I have yet to figure out what is worse. The fact that the person I love jumped off of his deck with intentions to hurt himself. (which is my fault). Or the fact that my gram went to the hospital at 3 in the morning.
It's just bad news after bad news after MORE bad news.
I've changed a lot for him... I was really, really self destructive... After almost eight months he's finally trying to change. I snapped the last time it happened....
And my gram, the woman that practically raised me when I was younger... Is in the hospital. She hasn't been doing well at all....
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13 years ago
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How could it possibly be your fault that he jumped off the deck with the intention of hurting himself? Unless you pushed in 0_o which I don't think you did. But love, everyone has to go through bad times. My nana is in a nursing home and slowly wasting away. She's not my strong will, sailor mouth nana that I grew up to love. The point is, it's hard but we can't live forever.
Things might start to look up soon. Bad is usually followed by good. We just have to be patient and wait.
The night is darkest before the dawn.
Sorry that i'm an idiot sometimes.
"as usual"...
haha...that wouldn't be good if you did forget the good part
because the rest does seem pretty bad...hopefully things get better soon
and yeah, you said it nicely...human nature does need to change...but thats what the whole 'doubt' thing was about. I want to bring people to life, not let them destroy themselves; I want to bring them to life, not make them robotic conformists...
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