Violin and stuff

I've determined that I want to pick up the violin again. I used to play it when I was in eighth grade. The violin was a loan from the school though, so I don't have it anymore. Now my goal is to get a new violin. I guess it is a way to stop being so bored of life (If I can ever actually get a violin!). At least, everyone was telling me to do something different or learn something new. Well, it's not new, but I will have to learn everything all over again.

Right now I am horribly half asleep. I haven't been hearing my alarm clock lately. It takes me forever to fall asleep and forever to wake up. I don't want to sleep, and when I do... I don't want to wake up. I can't make up my mind it seems.

I have writers block. Also, I have to read my poem out loud to the class in Spoken Word today. I need more volume, more eye contact, more movement, and I have to make sure my voice still holds the emotion of the poem. I hope I don't read it wrong or pause too long... Or pause when I don't want to pause....

Not a very good thing to think about when you are half asleep and miserable because you are awake. Not to mention that I am mad at myself for the fact that I can't seem to wake up early enough to see my boyfriend at least for a minute or two before school. He graduates soon.... But, in four days we will have been together for eight months. I think I'm keeping count too much...

Well, I have to go to class soon, so I'm going to go get ready then...